thank you...

so full of gratitude. really. this has been a week of wrapping up life in vancity to be put "on hold" for two months. sometimes it feels like i'm going away forever given the goodbyes. a few more get togethers this week and then off i go.

today was extra special. i knew it would be a little awkward as i walked into church knowing it'll be my last sunday till august. i really do love my church. wow. i said it. the people are tremendous. i'm learning to appreciate it so much as not every church body would have made this day as special as my church did for me.

morning service, i watched as my church rose from their seats to come and stand in agreement and pray for me. it truly was empowering... and yes i teared up.

chinese-speaking morning service... they prayed for me again... wow.

sunday school class, i had the opportunity just to share my heart. for me, anything that i get involved in, i gain a heart and burden for. today, i just went off and spoke. and yes... i teared up again.

just talking about brokenness in our class and how God is refining my character. character before calling. calling before competency. it just doesn't fly if one if it is out of order. if you got tons of competency but no calling, you're probably going to burn yourself out doing things that are not what you are suppose to do... or/and you'll burn yourself out doing everything. calling without character, you'll end up walking out what God may have called you to do, but without integrity and other foundations to make it through...

luncheon. wow... seeing that sight of people. wow. i feel so very loved. so very appreciated. so undeserving. thank you vcpc... from seniors to the kids. thank you even though i might seem to ignore you sometimes... i almost teared up again.

i knew this would be an emotional day. perhaps watching The Notebook yesterday probably prepped me for an day of emotions... haha.. so kiddin'.

let the river flow. oh man... i think it's coming again.

goodbye and goodnight. see you in august. can't wait to share with you again.

love you all tons. really. you wouldn't have this website if i didn't :p

lastly, in the words of my brother, "thanks for helping send my sister away so that i can have a little break for two months.."

ok eric...

i was told today that i didn't update my blog enough. so there. it's updated.

today was the last day of gladstone christian klub - a high school club that i run, attended mainly by teens who don't go to church...krazee kewl eh? i can't believe that i forgot to bring my camera! it would be so neat to see who comes out every year...to see them grow up - physically... and today we had the big group - 12 people who came pretty regularly throughout the year...

it was some fun times... eating pizza, laughing... chillin'... thanks for what you wrote in the card. aw, i love you guys tons!

i never would have imagined that i would be back in high school doing christian club stuff. i mean, i thought about it while i was in high school - as a speaker came to our club at killarney and said that we could do the same thing when we're in university... but i didn't imagine i would actually be doing it. perhaps you can say it was a idea that i spoke aloud and God took it as a desire and a dream and made it happen.

GCK (easier to pronounce if you call it GeCKo) is really something i look forward to. something i enjoy... just spending time getting to know them - at lunch hour, on email, msn... and 730am phone calls :p

loved getting together and talking and praying on wednesday mornings too... eric and mary, you guys made it special... or else i'd be sitting in my (ok ok i mean, my mom's) car all by myself.

today as they exited the room... i was on the opposite side of the room, so i didn't really give them hugs. i think if i did, i would have broken down and cried. yes, i'm a big little girl.

praying with them, seeing them learn about God and become inspired, watching their faces change as they hear speakers who strike a chord in their hearts... make it all worthwhile. in my life, i always ask myself "is it worth it." this is definitely one of those things that's "worth it." honestly, it's worth all of it. everything that may appear to be a sacrifice to others, everything that looks like it was difficult to do...it all has been worth it.

i think anytime you make investments in people, it's worth it. spending time, pouring into others lives... heck, i'd even forgo my sleep to chill with people (now for me, that's real sacrifice!). if only someone would pay me big bucks to do that... :]

anyways, i'll miss you guys this summer...yes, you too (whoever you are that is reading)... do email (spam) me... and i'll do my best to write back.

MSN dates...

I have a MSN date.

Yes, that's right. A date.

Don't worry, it's a girl... no wait.. it's a friend who is a female... argh... living in Canada you can't say nothing straight (no pun intended! ah haha... corny. ok.). Anyways., my buddy from Toronto has been to India before so we just wanted to talk a bit about stuff. Give me a few pointers and such. It should be pretty cool. Just need to decide what exactly do we want to see in New Delhi... the Taj Mahal...what else?

It seems like everything around me is turning into questions about India. Hmm... I guess it's because that's the next major thing for me. "How am I feeling? Am I prepared? What do I still need? What will I be doing?"

The itinerary isn't set yet... but I totally believe that God will make everything come together...even if it takes up till the very last day we leave. I'm not that anxious which is making me even more anxious - get that? It's like I'm not responding like I normally am therefore I feel like I need to be more anxious... it's dumb, I know.

17 more days... I need to get my visa, another small backpack, skirts(?)... it's funny, I always wear skirts on missions trips... I come home with all these pictures of me in these "non-pant like cloth-things" and people are like, "who are you!?! what happened to you?! why don't you wear skirts here?!?"

Well let me tell you..! In 30+ degrees celsius it's just more comfy to wear breezy clothing ;) And also... skirts and squatties are sooooo much easier..!

Anyways, let's get out of toilet-talk.

I'll keep you (whoever you are) posted on what updates as God puts this all together...

Till next time... my eyes are hurting. Not feeling the best... been 'round too many flu-ish... people!

who would have thunk it?

Never would have guessed.
What possessed me?
What's possessing me?
Must be the younger people I'm around.. couz apparently I'm "old" .

Welcome to my new home.
Grab a chair.
Make yourself comfy.

I'm not a blogger. I've never been one... avoided Asian Avenue, Friendster, Xanga... but now?
Sucked in. Oh darn.

Well if you know me well enough you know I love to talk... I can talk about nothing for a very long time :) The gift of gab.. yes, thank you Lord? :p

Anyway, this may be easier for India, I'm told. And then I don't have to worry about punctuation marks or captials. i can write however i like - blogging style.

Well this is my first post and my test post. Hello??? A whole world at my disposal... an entire earth to hear what I have to say.. Wow. A free audience.

warning: This ain't gonna be no fancy dancy stuff.. nothing flying across the page, no major pictures and such. Just some plain o'text... sorries if you're expecting a grande multimedia presentation.